The Adventure: Abseiling, zip lines, and climbing waterfalls
The emotion: Unexpected and overwhelming beauty
We were instructed to link up and turn off our lights. Shawn, our adventure guide, carried us through the darkness and down the long stream while we laid back and looked at the cave ceiling. It looked like a brilliant night sky. It looked like an eternal galaxy. It looked and felt like I was floating in heaven. Our rowdy whooping and hollering crew turned completely silent and there were only the sounds of the water was we floated down the dark, cool tunnel. It seemed like it lasted forever. I thought of my Mimi (who has recently passed) and I talked to her. "Mimi, can you see this? This is so amazing and beautiful and I hope you are with me right now to see this. I love you... I miss you so much." I prayed for my loved ones each individually, friends and family, and hoped that they could find the peace I had at that moment somewhere in their lives. I asked for health and happiness for everyone I know. I prayed that I would not forget the earthly silence and loud thoughts that streamed through my mind at that moment. I prayed that this peace, that I had right now, I would experience when it is my time to say goodbye to this world.
It was simply in-explainable really. I felt peace and hope and closeness to everyone I loved.
I know everyone in the group did not have that experience, but everyone did find it amazing. Everyone thought it was special. Maybe it is best I have no recording of any of this... I know that it would be able to capture that moment for me. I was thankful for the darkness in the cave so I didn't have to explain my tears. I needed a few more moments in those feelings without talking.
Eventually the tunnel float came to and end. In some ways I was relieved as it was like an intense therapy session. I'm still working through the loss of this great woman in my life and this voice-less therapy session was unexpected and caught me totally by surprise.
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A highlight of our 9 month journey to date
Thanks to The Legendary Black Water Rafting Co for making this possible and for helping me add this great experience to my resume of life.