So first of all we agreed to not exchange presents this year. Brent kept asking over and over to make sure I didn't even get him a card and I didn't because I thought we had agreed. Needless to say that he sent me a beautiful bouquet of tulips to my work, which are my favorite flower of all time. Getting the flowers to me ended up being a bit of a fiasco...
Thanks to all my dear friends who came out making the night so memorable!
Year One In Review
Another thing I love is that when I'm out and about I'm a very friendly person. I think at times my overly outgoing and happy self is at mistaken and people think I'm hitting on them. Now that I'm married I can throw out something about "my husband" and it's all kosher from that point. I also think it's interesting that people seem to accept that much more than a boyfriend. When you say you have a boyfriend sometimes the other person acts like you're still single.
One big difference is the feeling of belonging. Yes, I feel like I belong to someone and I love it. When Brent asked me to marry him it meant that he didn't want to be with anyone else. I already kind of knew that but it meant he was ready to let everyone else know that as well. There's a certain peace in that and its great. I love that I can imagine my future with him and feel more secure that he'll be by my side. Yada, yada I know there's a lot of cynics out there and I know that marriage doesn't always last but being in the lovey dovey state I'm in just let me continue to believe that we'll always be.. because I really do believe it.
On a personal note last year was challenging. It was a rough year for the world economically and we definitely felt a pinch. I'm thankful to say that Brent has a great new job and this year looks as if it will be a bit easier. The last year definitely made us appreciate what we have more so than before. I think it also really showed us that we can be supportive in tough times as well as when life is "easy". It's nice to know that at some of our hardest times we'll still be there for each other and not screaming at each other.
We also had a "baby" named Eye Caddie. It's a baby in that as a new business it is a challenge and requires us to communicate in new ways. We disagree at times on how to deal with various aspects of the business like how to handle our independent contractors, vendors, etc. It keeps us up at night worrying, drains money, and sometimes I think the business actually cries. There are good moments too, like when Eye Caddie walks on it's own two feet, even if just for a couple of steps. It is only a year old so I don't expect it to feed itself or wipe it's own bottom yet but I'm hopeful. The good thing about our baby is that we can walk away if we need to.
Mostly the year has been good and memorable. I still can't believe that I wake up and feel so much adoration and love towards Brent. It isn't always rosy but more than not we are great. If the biggest disagreements in the house are where to eat, my annoying-to-him eating local habits and his tendency to leave on the faucet while brushing his teeth... I think we are doing pretty good so far.
Mr Lane, I love you and I'm happy to let the world know, especially when I'm drunk and running up and down the street exclaiming to all that it's my anniversary. I know they don't care but I like to shout it anyways. You are kind and sweet, mostly when nobody is looking. You put up with me singing "it's a beautiful day in the neighborhood" while skipping and dancing around the house, when nobody else can see how crazy and silly I can be, even sober. You make me laugh and when you frustrate me, you still make me laugh. You never call me ugly names and call me out when I really need it. You support me even when I need to be supporting you sometimes. Thanks for "getting" me and letting me shine as the simultaneously silly and serious, hippy and yuppy, sappy person I am.